Another reason to celebrate Easter

One year ago today, we found out about you.  You can read all the details here, if you want to.

I am thinking about that day last year, when we had no idea you were already growing.  I had a long winter and was really struggling with questions about how God takes care of us and how much we can trust Him.  He tells us that we never need to be afraid, because He is with us.  He tells us to trust Him.  You have a lifetime to find out how simple and natural that can be at some times and how nearly impossible it can be at others.

God knows we are most happy when we remember that the details are up to Him, not up to us.  As you get to know me, you will probably figure out that this is where I struggle most of the time.  But God is teaching me still, just as He has been all along, to wait.  And at the moment when I was realizing that there wasn't much more that I could do, He reminded me that planning my life is His job and never mine.  And there you were.  And here you are.

Little one, you are a miracle.  God has been using you to do big things since the first moment of your existence.  For me, Easter is the day when I celebrate the redemption that Jesus bought for us on the cross.  And now, it is also the day when I remember that I can trust God to give me every good thing in His perfect timing.

I hope I have this down better by the time you are old enough to notice.  But if not, I guess we will just keep on learning to same lessons over again, together.

Love,
Mom